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hello everyone! today i am going to be talking about while we were dating by jasmine guillory. i gave this book 3/5 stars. honestly this book was good and fun to read, but i feel like there was nothing super remarkable about it, but it was still well done.

trigger warnings- panic attacks / disorder, sexual content, mental illness, body shaming, fatphobia, abandonment, alcohol, bullying, cursing, misogyny, medical content, racism, grief.

i think my biggest issue with this book is the fact that it still is in the wedding date series. like, i honestly liked this series, and i honestly do like guillory’s books, but i feel like that she needs to get out of this series. like the first couple books were so good, but as the series went on, i feel like it just got to be not that amazing, and slowly got bad. like, i think that she is just stuck in the confines of this series and what she can or can’t do within this world guillory built for herself. and i honestly wish they got out of this series and that she wrote books outside of this and explored more themes or characters.

another thing i didn’t really like was how that i didn’t feel the chemistry, especially on anna’s part. like, i think so much of the book was focused on ben and how ben had these feelings and all this about him. but when it came to anna’s feelings, i feel like they weren’t really there and that it was more focused on her career and her movies. and honestly, i feel like they did have the right build up, but something still was missing the mark on the characters and the relationship, and i honestly wish they had more cute moments before ben and anna jumped into bed together or just a little more fluff.

and like i feel like the pacing was just so weird. like, they had sex so quick when they first met, and even the sex just felt so outplace in the book. and than they had this fake dating plot. and i honestly feel like it just didn’t make sense and that some of the pacing in the book just didn’t fit. like, i think if it had better pacing, it would’ve worked so much better and that i honestly wish it was better. and like, i do think that it had these moments were just really randomly placed, and kind of a mess.

as for the chemistry, i think that it was honestly a mess. like, i honestly wished i liked both anna and ben, but they both kind of fell short for me. like, i mean, for one, i think they both had these side plots and then their main plots together, but their side plots lowkey sucked. like the whole plot with ben and his family and how they are having familial issues and problems, didn’t just make me really like it. and i mean, anna’s was okay, but i still think her plot with her and her movie was all over the place, and boring at that. but, i do think with ben and his family plot, it didn’t fit with the book. like, anna’s movie at last dealt with the plot and worked since this book is all about hollywood, where i feel like the whole plot with his family just didn’t work and should’ve been toned down a bit.

but, one thing i did like was the mental health and anxiety. like, i do think that it was cool because i feel like so many romance books try to have this powerful mental health journey, yet they are honestly never really good. so, i honestly feel like the whole mental health and anxiety really worked for me in this series and i honestly think it was really good. and like, i feel like it very much was equal opportunity, and they just didn’t focus on anna’s instead of both of them. and kind of overall, i honestly really like how guillory tries to normalize mental health and anxiety and therapy.

another thing i didn’t like was how basic this book felt. like, i honestly love books were one or both of the main characters are in hollywood and that famous character romances are just so good. but, i think my issue with this is that on the cover and on the description make it sound like this great big hollywood romance, but i feel like this was barely any hollywood and more just normal boring ass people. like they talk about how important anna’s job is and this role means to her, yet we know nothing about this movie, besides that it’s an action movie/ some sort of marvel type of movie, and then something about this new film and this new director, yet we know nothing about the film or the director. and like, if this movie was so important, which it obviously is, seeing that the whole book / romance revolves around this movie, i wish we knew a little bit more about it and not just be kept in the dark.

also i feel like the same thing happened to ben. like, i do think we know a lot about his job, and they kind of explained it, yet i still feel like there were moments we still were kept in the dark. and also that they talked so much about his job and how it means the world to him. yet, half way threw the book it literally just disappears and that they just stopped talking about it and he just kept blowing it off. like, i think that it was just so stupid because if it was so important, i don’t get why half way threw the book, he just stops going back to work and just lives in LA now.

and overall for this book, i feel like this book was just underdeveloped. like, the characters and the plot and the romance, just felt like it didn’t have enough time to really beat out the better and firmer details. like, most of this just rubbed me the wrong way and that i wish they developed the romance more, especially towards the end, since now we know that they ‘come from two completely different worlds’ and i think that they should’ve just put a little something more there.

anyway, that is all for today! i honestly wish i loved this book than i did and i feel like so much of this book could’ve been approved upon. but, i’m still really excited to see how her next book goes, since it’s a beauty and the beast retelling in a completely new series.

hello everyone! today i am going to be talking about lock every door by riley sager. i gave this book 4/5 stars. i honestly liked this book, besides the ending since i feel like it was kind of a mess and that it really just didn’t fit with the book, in away.

trigger warnings- death of a parent, medical content, medical trauma, death, murder, fire/fire injury, suicide, trafficking, blood, grief, kidnapping, confinement, self harm, gaslighting, injury/injury detail, violence, terminal illness, torture, classism, chronic illness, forced institutionalization, body horror, gore, gun violence, infidelity, toxic relationship, stalking, car accident, cancer.

honestly, one thing i really liked was that this book was the normal and basic thriller book that are mainstreamed today. like, i feel like so many books that are popular thrillers or mysteries are these stories about married people, couples, or families. so, i feel like having this book not focus on married couples cheating or something was honestly so nice. plus, it honestly felt very original and that it also kind of only murders in the building, which was honestly super cool.

but, another thing i really liked was that this book was a slow paced thriller. like, i think so many authors try to make their thriller books be so fast paced and pack so much action in these 300 ish paged books. so, i honestly really liked and thought it was honestly so cool that this was slow paced and that you’re figuring everything out, and not in this fast way, in more of a slow way and that with it being slower and having a slow paced books honestly upped the tension and that it made it kind of creepier.

but, when it came to the end of the book, and the final big reveal, i honestly hoped that it was this supernatural or something satanic or something that wasn’t as, lack of better words, ‘normal’ as the reveal. like, i wish that they had more of a can’t explain ending as this book was. like, was it was cool and i’ve never read anything like that before, i just wish that it had something more. and like they’re was so much build up in this book that it had these supernatural build up moments, but then it was like surprise, it wasn’t.

another thing in this book i really liked was the atmosphere of this book. like, i feel like they really did a good job with writing it and that it was honestly very spooky, and that it taking place was just so cool. and i mean, i honestly think that it was one of my favorite parts, since this big apartment made it seem so much cooler, and just having these parts where she would hear screams or something, it was just so cool and i really ate it up.

but one thing i wish they did was have more talk and more a little in depth were they talk about classism and and money and financial situations. like, i think they should have completely had a bigger part about it and did more about it, cause you could really see the difference, and if they went into it more i honestly think it would’ve been better and honestly something that a lot of people could probably relate to at the same time. and plus they always talked about money and how much it cost to live at this place in all, so i don’t know why they just didn’t completely jump in deeper.

but when it came to the main character, i honestly don’t know if i liked her or not. like, she did have moments that she was really kick ass and that she was smart, but at the same time she was just kind of slow and boring. but, at the same time, i think it was cool, but not. like, i think she did kind of suffer from the whole part that this book was way to slow, and that her as a character / person kind of suffered from that. but, i do think that if the plot was higher stakes or that the book was just faster, she would’ve been a better character.

but besides jules, i didn’t really have a connect with any of the other side characters in the book. but, like even though the two other side apartment sitters were cool, i just didn’t connect with them. like, i feel like yeah they were characters, but they were just characters that aided jules in her journey a little bit. and like, i think they also just didn’t add enough to the story, like the yeah ingrid had plot, but it still wasn’t interesting enough at the same time to really feel bad for her.

and like when you see the other ‘real’ tenants in the apartment, i honestly didn’t like. like, yeah they’re stories were kind of cool but one of them was just a bitch and the other one was way to shady to actually like her. so, i mean, overall, i did kind of like that they were shady, since it really brings in the ending better, but still i wish that they were a little better and more of a friend, than these random characters that were just oddly placed.

then, with how they introduced jules’ family, i was so confused, like i think her sister’s name was like anne or something. but, like i literally thought that they were just friends, but than they lived together so i thought they were sisters, but i still don’t really know if they are sisters or friends, and i honestly wished it was explained better.

one thing that i did like though was how this book kind of flashed between present and when jules’ came to the apartment building. if i’m being honest, i probably wouldn’t have really stuck with the book if they didn’t have the present part, since it did have those whole present moments, and it honestly was really cool to see how it plays into the end of the book and seeing how the present and the end of the flashback part. and honestly, it was cool because it gave you knowledge but also didn’t tell you shit.

anyway, that is all for today! honestly liked this book, but at the same time i didn’t really like it. but it still was just still a decent book, but i wish it was a bit more supernatural than it was.

hello everyone! today i am going to be talking about love in the afternoon by lisa kleypas. i gave this book 4/5 stars. honestly, i think that this is the worst book in the series, and i feel like it just had a completely different vibe from the rest of the books in the series, which i think is super disappointing.

trigger warnings- gun violence, mental illness, death, panic attacks / disorder, sexual content, violence, blood, war, injury / injury detail, terminal illness, alcohol, classism.

honestly, i think my favorite thing about this book was beatrix. like, i think that each of the heroine’s in this series were just so completely different, so i honestly really liked her. in away, i think that beatrix is kind of like what they wanted show!eloise bridgerton to be. and like i honestly really loved to see how much she cared for her family and how she had this passion for animals, that it was something i honestly loved to read about. but, there was still some moments in this book were she just pissed me off so much, since she did get to be on my nerves after it all happened.

though, even some parts about her got to be annoying. like, she was just one of those know it all’s, and like she knew everything about every single plant and every single animal. and after awhile, it was just such a pain in the ass and very boring to read. like, i get that you like it, but at the same time it’s like girl, shut the hell up. and like there is a time and a place for it all and i mean, i think they just needed to stop having it in this book. and even when he went and kidnapped the dog, it was like girl what the hell, like yeah i know it’s the right thing for the dog, but like still, she took this mans dog.

but, one thing that i didn’t really like in this book was the whole love letter things. like, i honestly just didn’t like add anything and this whole ‘he thinks someone else is writing’ love triangle thing just didn’t work. like, so much of this book was just lying and scheming and i just didn’t like it. plus, i feel like the whole love letters just didn’t work, since beatrix is this headstrong and not your stereotypical historical romance lead, i feel like these small little love letters just didn’t work in her story. like, the whole love letter / pen pals thing could’ve been so cool in leo and marks’ story.

then when we actually meet christopher in the book, like in person, i didn’t like him and i never really warmed up to him. like, i think so much of this book was how he was just this brooding asshole and i really didn’t like him. like so much of his personality and just all the small interactions were just him being an actual asshole to everyone, especially beatrix. and i think that so much of this book just annoyed me. like, i think so much of the parts of his grief was just done bad, since he was just being a dick to everyone. plus, i think he even took advantage of beatrix at times, since she was not your basic heroine.

and i also think that he was just very over dramatic at some parts. like, half of the book he was brooding and the next part he was like super dramatic with his love and then super lusty. and i mean, i think that they should’ve just handled it better and made it work a little better. and i mean, i did think he did have some parts were he was better, like towards the end with his PTSD. and i mean, i also think seeing his PTSD with how he wanted to stop talking about the war, i honestly liked that.

but, when it came to this whole romance / ptsd balance. i feel like in away, it did kind of come off to be this whole ‘love cured ptsd/mental health issues’ which i honestly didn’t like. i mean, i think the ptsd part was honestly pretty good, especially in a historical romance by a mainstream author. but, i feel like that once it did get to the whole ending, it just felt very underwhelming and i think they still should’ve made it a little better and maybe not cut the ties loose.

one of my favorite things in this book though, was the hathaway’s. honestly, i think they were honestly this killer family and i do really like how they all band together and deal with every other. but, i do feel like we were kind of cut for them. it might just be because my favorite couple/characters is marks and leo and they were like barely in this book. but, i feel like the family just wasn’t this big part of the book, and i do wish they did have more of a plot and more of a bigger part in here. and i honestly think it was truly criminal that they didn’t have the whole family together with their kids, like years in the future.

i also think though is that there was just so many possibilities in this book, that never really happened. like, i understand what they were trying to do, but i think that they didn’t really use this book to the full value of this book and i just wish they didn’t waste so much of the book on the dumb and stupid things. like, the whole courtship too just took way to long and i wish they honestly wish that they just didn’t make the whole formalness take so much time and than maybe give more post marriage stuff.

another thing that kind of annoyed me was the whole dramatic elements and drama. like, i think that there was so many moments that were so much more dramatic from the other books in the series. and i think all the drama did take away from the story and that it could’ve done without it and just changed it and made it to be more into a feel good romance story.

anyway, that is all for today! honestly i wish that this book was better than it was, since it could’ve been such a great story and a good way to wrap up this series and i think that it could’ve been so good.

hello everyone! today i am going to be talking about all the books i want to read this month. honestly i feel like i’ll read most of these, since i’ve been reading more books recently than i have before and honestly these all sound so good.

desperate measures by katee robert. this i an aladdin retellings. this is a jafar and jasmine AU. so, this is a story about jafar, the villain, who claims and owns princess jasmine, after taking away everything from her father, his money and his empire and everything inbetween.

the maidens by alex michaelides. edward fosca is a murderer; of this, mariana is certain. but fosca is untouchable. a handsome and charismatic greek tragedy professor at cambridge university, fosca is adored by the staff and the students alike, particularly the members of the secret society of female students known as the maidens. mariana andros is a brilliant but troubled group therapist who becomes fixated on the maidens when one member, a friend of mariana’s niece zoe, is found murdered in cambridge. mariana, who was once herself a student at the university, quickly suspects that behind the idyllic beauty of the spires and turrets, and beneath the ancient traditions, lies something sinister. and she becomes convinced that, despite his alibi, edward fosca is guilty of murder. but why would the professor target one of his students? and why does he keep returning to the rites of persephone, the maiden, and her journey to the underworld?

a far wilder magic by allison saft. when margaret welty spots the legendary hala, the last living mythical creature, she knows that halfmoon hunt will soon follow. whoever is able to kill the hala will earn fame and riches, and unlock the ancient magical secret. if margaret wins the hunt, it may finally bring her mother home. while margaret is the best sharpshooter in town, only teams of two can register, and she needs an alchemist. weston winters isn’t an alchemist, yet. fired from every apprenticeship he’s landed, his last chance hinges on master welty taking him in. but when wes arrives at welty manor, he finds only margaret and her bloodhound, trouble. margaret begrudgingly allows him to stay, but on one condition: he must join the hunt with her. although they make an unlikely team, wes is in awe of the girl who has endured alone on the outskirts of a town that doesn’t want her, in this creaking house of ghosts and sorrow. and even though wes disrupts every aspect of her life, margaret is drawn to him. he, too, knows what it’s like to be an outsider. as the hunt looms closer and tensions rise, margaret and west uncover dark magic that could be the key to winning the hunt.

all my rage by sabaa tahir. lahore, pakinstan- then. misbah is a dreamer and storyteller, newly married to toufiq in an arranged match. after their young life is shaken by tragedy, they come to the united states and open the cloud’s rest inn motel, hoping for a new start. juniper, california- now. salahudin and noor are more than best friends; they are family. growing up as outcasts in the small desert town of juniper, california, they understand each other the way no one else does. until the flight, which destroys their bond with the swift fury of a start exploding. now, sal scrambles to run the family motel as his mother misbah’s health fails and his grieving father loses himself to alcoholism. noor, meanwhile, walks a harrowing tightrope: working at her watchful uncle’s liquor store while hiding the fact that she’s applying to college so she can escape him, and juniper, forever. when sal’s attempt to save the motel spiral out of control, he and noor must ask themselves what friendship is worth, and what it takes to defeat the monsters in their pasts and the ones in their midst.

gallant by ve schwab. olivia prior has grown up in merilance school for girls, and all she has of her past is her mother’s journal, which seems to unravel into madness. then, a letter invites olivia to come home- to gallant. yet, when olivia arrives, no one is expecting her. but olivia is not about to leave the first place that feels like home, it doesn’t matter if her cousin matthew is hostile or if she sees half formed ghouls haunting the hallways. olivia knows that gallant is hiding secrets, and she is determined to uncover them. when she crosses a ruined wall at just the right moment, olivia finds herself in a place that is gallant, but not. the manor is crumbling, the ghouls are solid, and a mysterious figure rules over all. now olivia sees what has unraveled generations of her family, and where her father may have come from.

jay’s gay agenda by jason june. there’s one thing jay collier knows for sure, he’s a statistical anomaly as the only out gay kid in his small rural washington town. while all of this friends can’t stop talking about their heterosexual hookups and relationships, jay can only dream of his own firsts, compiling a romance to do list of all the things he hopes to one day experience- his gay agenda. then, against all odds, jay’s family moves to seattle and his starts his senior year at a new high school with a thriving lgbtqia+ community. for the first time ever, jay feels like he’s found where he truly belongs, where he can flirt with very sexy boys and search for love. but as jay begins crossing items off his list, he’ll soon to be torn between his heart and his hormones, his old friends and his new one, because after all, life and love don’t always go according to plan.

disney lands by ridley pearson. with the defeat of the overtakers behind them, the five teenagers known as the kingdom keepers should be celebrating. by all accounts, they saved disneyland from a certain destruction. now, the keepers must solve a puzzle of the past, or be crushes under an evil that makes the overtakers seem like gentle souls.

until friday night by abbi glines. to everyone who knows him, west ashby has always been that guy: the cocky, popular, way too handsome for his own good football god who led lawton high to the state championships. but while west may be the big man on campus on the outside, on the inside he’s battling the grief that comes with watching is father slowly die of cancer. two years ago, maggie carleton’s life fell apart when her father murdered her mother. and after she told the police what happened, she stopped speaking and hasn’t spoken since. even the move to lawton, alabama, couldn’t draw maggie back out. so she stayed quiet, keeping her sorrow and her fractured heart hidden away. as west’s pain becomes too much to handle, he knows he needs to talk to someone about his father, so in the dark shadows of a post game party, he opens up to the one girl who he knows won’t tell anyone else.

delilah green doesn’t care by ashley herring blake. delilah green swore she would never go back to bright falls, nothing is there for her but memories of a lonely childhood where she was little more than a burden to her cold and distant stepfamily. her life is in new york, with her photography career finally gaining steam and her bed never empty. sure, it’s a different woman every night, but that’s just fine with her. when delilah’s estranged stepsister, astrid, pressures her into photographing her wedding with a guilt trip and a five figure check, delilah finds herself back in the godforsaken town that she used to call home. she plans to breeze in and out, but then she sees claire sutherland, one of astrid’s stuck up besties, and decides that maybe there’s some fun, and a little retribution, to be in bright falls. but, having raised her 11 year old daughter mainly on her own while dealing with her unreliable ex and running a bookstore, claire sutherland depends upon a life without surprises. and delilah green is an unwelcomed surprise, at first. though they’re known each other for years, they don’t really know each other, so claire is unsettled when delilah figures out exactly what buttons to push. when they’re forced together during a gauntlet of wedding preparations, including a plot to save astrid from her horrible finance, claire isn’t sure she has the strength to resist delilah’s charms.

dial a for aunties by jesse q. sutanto. when meddelin chan ends up accidentally killing her blind date, her meddlesome mother calls for her even more meddlesome aunties to help get rid of the body. unfortunately, a dead body proves to be a lot more challenging to dispose of than one might anticipate, especially when it is inadvertently shipped in a cake coolers to the over the top wedding meddy, her ma, and aunties are working at an island resort on the california coastline. it’s the biggest job yet for the family wedding business and nothing, not even an unsavory corpse, will get in the way of her auntie’s perfect buttercream flowers.

promises and pomegranates by sav. r miller. i’m not sure what this book is actually about, but all i know is that this is a hades and persephone retelling.

layla by colleen hoover. when leeds meets layla, he’s convinced he’ll spend the rest of his life with her, until an unexpected attack leaves layla fighting for her life. after weeks in the hospital, layla recovers physically, but the emotional and mental scarring has altered the woman leeds fell in love with. in order to put their relationship back on track, leeds whisks layla away to the bed and breakfast where they first met. once they arrive, layla’s behavior takes a bizarre turn. and that’s just one of many inexplicable occurrences. feeling distant from layla, leeds soon finds solace in willow, another guest and the b&b with whom he forms a connection through their shared concerns. as his curiosity for willow grows, his decision to help her find answers put him in direct conflict with layla’s well being. leeds soon realizes he has to make a choice because he can’t help both of them.

anyway, that is all for today! honestly, i’m so excited for these books, and i do feel like i will get to a lot of them since i do have a break towards the end of the month.

hello everyone! today i am going to be talking about the love hypothesis by ali hazelwood. i gave this book 4/5 stars. i honestly liked this book, but i don’t feel like it deserved all the hype it got, since it did feel a little overhyped and it just wasn’t anything special on top of it.

trigger warnings- sexual harassment, sexual content, sexual assault, sexism, cancer, death of a parent, misogyny, cursing, emotional abuse, gaslighting, grief, death, bullying, toxic friendship, terminal illness, chronic illness, medical content, alcohol, panic attacks / disorder, fatphobia, body shaming, mental illness, physical abuse, rape, sexual violence, violence, medical trauma, abandonment, ableism, addiction.

i think my biggest turn off from this book was the sex scene. like, so many people would hype this book up because of the sex scene and how good it was and how spicy it was. but, like this book was so bland, when it comes to sex scenes. like, it was one scene, and the whole scene was just so underwhelming at that, and it was just so random. especially with the whole tit sucking scene, that was just so weird and i honestly really was uncomfortable with it, and it just didn’t make sense, even if her tits were that small. but, i mean this is a booktok book, and they think that it ends with us is a romance, so i can’t be to surprised.

one of the things i did really like was olive. like, her personality was nothing to write home about, for good or for bad, but more so her job. like, i honestly really liked that she was this young girl who works in stem and wants a future working in this line of work. like, i don’t think i ever really read to many books, or even have to many books mainstreamed that have young woman in stem, so having this representation for woman that want to do this career path, it would be so cool to have someone in a big romance book to do that career path. plus, i believe that hazelwood is also going to publish more books with woman scientists, i think that it is just so cool.

with that being said, i also really liked how they didn’t shy away from the harder parts about being a woman in stem. like, they could have completely glorified the position and just make it seem like a better job than it actually is, so i honestly really liked that they were honest about it and that they did say that it sucks for woman, especially young and pretty woman. so, i honestly really liked that they did open up those conversations about sexism and how she is seen as not good enough or that they think she can’t handle it because she is woman, i honestly really liked those parts. and i think they were so good is because they felt genuine and they felt like something that would actually happen to soemone, instead of someone just completely guessing about what it would be like to go through all of this.

but, something else about olive, she just felt like really childish. like, i don’t know if it’s because adam is older than her, but for so much of this book she just felt like a teenager. like, i think the biggest thing that makes me feel this way is because she is makes adam pay for literally everything and than never compensates for anything, and barely ever offers to pay. and like i know she is a struggling PhD student, like i get that, and i understand that money is tight. but, it just felt so childish that he had to pay for everything. and then there were just other moments where she just felt very young and kind of naive and childish.

then for adam, honestly he was kind of boring. like, i think that as a character, he was fine, but as a person, he was annoying. like, they always talked about how hot and how brooding and how sullen he was. i mean it’s probably just because this was just olive talking. but, i feel like we knew literally nothing about him, besides that he’s hot and kind of a dick to his students and that’s it. and i mean, it only got to be annoying because it was literally shoved down our throats at least once a chapter and i honestly wish they gave him a bit more personality and a little something more than just the same info repeated over and over.

as much as i liked to see olive and her work and all of that, i still feel like this book would have better with dual pov. like, in general, romance books are so much better with two povs, and i feel like this book would have been so much better with it having both. in my mind, it would have really benefited to have olive and adam’s thoughts about everything that was happening, and so we could possibility see more about adam than just the superficial things that they told us with olive’s pov. and i think with two povs we could have gotten to know them both so much better and i think that this book would have really benefited from two povs.

but, i honestly really liked the tropes in this book. like, with this book being a fanfic book, i honestly expected it to have a ton of good tropes. like, i think the whole age gap was done really well, and that they didn’t do it so it was creepy and that it didn’t feel unnatural between the two of them. and the fake dating and slow burn was good, and like i feel like that there was done really well and that they honestly really did it well, and honestly wove it into the plot that made it feel natural and made it feel like it was something that just worked, and honestly didn’t feel to forced and that it was just really good.

anyway, that is all for today! i honestly liked this book, but i don’t think it deserved all the hype that booktok gave it, but it still was a decent book. and i honestly will read the other books that this author puts out, since it was just so good.

hello everyone! today i am going to be talking about barbarian alien by ruby dixon. i gave this book 2/5 stars. honestly i didn’t expect to much from this book, since i don’t read these books for the actual reading, more so with the entertainment value from these, since they’re just so silly and stupid.

trigger warnings- sexual content, kidnapping, animal death, confinement, sexism, pregnancy, misogyny, injury/injury detail, bullying, cursing, sexual assault, violence, blood, abandonment, emotional abuse, rape, toxic relationship, forced institutionalization, medical content, trafficking, stalking, gaslighting.

i think my biggest issue with this book, was liz. like in book one, georgie was honestly annoying, but i could still tolerate her, to some degree. but, when it came to liz, holy shit was she a pain the ass. like, so much of this book was just liz being just was being a bitch over and over again. like, yeah raahosh was kind of a dick, but he was just honestly so much nicer to her and like he genuinely cared about her and made sure she had a enough food and a warm place to sleep and clothes, but than she would turn around and just be such an asshole to him. like, it honestly was just so annoying and it honestly got on my nerves after a while.

and also, like i feel like there was just also this part where she was just so slut shamey to other women. like, i think that a lot of the other human girls were just doing what was best with what the situation they were put it, and they adapted to the whole alien life style with their clothes and their periods and like living in these caves, especially with the whole nudity part. and like i get not being completely comfortable with baring everything for the world to see, but like when she would go on these tangents about how they were always naked and and it was gross, and how she’s not a slut so she needs to cover herself up, it got to be a bit to much and i hated it.

with that, i honestly really like raahosh. like, i think he was honestly so sweet, and i honestly really liked the way he cared about liz and all the things he did for her, even if she was just such an asshole to him and everyone around her. and like, i he was just nice to read about. plus, i really liked that we got a hero, especially in a romance book that is about aliens, i think it was cool that we got a hero that was emotionally scarred and that it kind of made it feel more reasonable, even if it was about aliens.

but, i still feel like this book was toxic as all fuck, and even if he still had better moments than liz, raahosh was still an asshole. like, for one, off the bat we see the kidnapping because she doesn’t want to be with him, he just takes her away, which, i was happy to see in the end of the book there was some consequences. and also the whole scene with the worm and how he put it in her, when she even said no, was just so gross. i honestly hated it so much and i really didn’t like how they just did that, even once she said no and she didn’t want it, multiple times. and like, the whole way they justified it, was that it would ‘protect’ her and made them have better sex. i still just think it was done so grossly and i honestly really didn’t like it at all.

and like when they finally had those whole i love you moment, and how they actually realized that they did love it each other. i think it was just so gross and i honestly didn’t like them together. like, i think so much of this relationship was just built on sex and lust, that when they actually got together, it just felt off. and i mean, i think that they could’ve made it been so much better and how they just didn’t work to well. plus, i think so much of this book had the whole ‘i only live for you’ plot, which is something i don’t like, so having it in here was just gross, but it’s just alien’s so who knows.

ICE PLANET HONEYMOON: RAAHOSH & LIZ- 2/5 stars.

i think that this book was just so boring. like, i feel like so much of this book was just boring and i honestly just didn’t like that those vibe of this book. like, so much of this book was just liz just sitting around and raahosh kinda just going along with it, since he can’t come near her because of the exile. but, i think that so much of this was just so boring and it really didn’t do to much for me.

but, i also think that so much of this book just had so many things that went against what actually happened in the original book. like, there was just so many parts of this book where raahosh was insecure about himself, like one part he called himself ugly. and like in the original book, liz would’ve been like, no your not ugly and kind of comforted him in what he thought. but, instead, in here she just kind of let it go and didn’t help him when he came out and said that, which honestly just pissed me off.

and like i think that also so much of this book just didn’t have a good plot. like, the whole conflict and it all was just sexual, mainly cause the whole ugly. but, i think that so much of this book was just so juvenile and it just felt like something that was so basic, and felt like such a stupid book. like, i wish they did focus a little less on the whole sexual plot, and if they did have the whole sexual plot, they didn’t make it seem so childish. and i mean, i think it could’ve been so much better, if it was just pure sex, and not all this side plot.

anyway, that is all for today! i honestly wished i liked this book, but i mean it still was an entertaining read nonetheless. and i mean, it still was a fun book to read, and definitely good for one of those no think books, which was something i honestly really like to read.

hello everyone! today i am going to be talking about the fourth and fifth books in the mindf*ck series by st abby. the first three books in this series are in the blog post before this one, and there will be spoilers for the first three books.

trigger warnings- murder, rape, sexual assault, torture, sexual violence, death, sexual content, blood, gore, violence, homophobia, police brutality, physical abuse, kidnapping, sexual harassment, injury/injury detail, death of a parent, body horror, grief, domestic abuse, gun violence, cursing, hate crime, child abuse, mental illness, misogyny, toxic relationship, vomit, medical trauma, child death, confinement, emotional abuse, inferility, medical content, car accident, fire/fire injury, biphobia, stalking, schizophrenia, gaslighting, animal death, bullying, sexism, suicide, terminal illness, cannibalism, abandonment.

ALL THE LIES- 5/5 stars

honestly, i think my least favorite part of this book was how it was just so unbelievable. like, i know most of this series is kind of unbelievable, but i feel like this one took the cake. like, i don’t know how nobody in this town or any of the fbi agents put the two and two together, that now all of this is happening in this town when everyone now comes to this town, especially how logan didn’t figure it out cause it was just so easy, especially with how she told him she traveled right as the crimes happened. and like, i feel like it just happened way to easily and i think that they should have shook it up a little bit, but that is just me, but i still think it was a good read, nonetheless.

i will say though, this book got to be very violent and gross very quickly into this book. like, of course all the other books in this series are as bloody and gross, but i think as this story went on, it just got grosser and to be more violent as it happened. but, i feel like this book was just so much more interesting, especially since they were working in such closed quarters, with it all happening in a singular location and with the fbi being in the same direct area this all happened. it was honestly so fun, and i think it was just such a good way to add to this story.

but, i also really liked that in this book they did talk about marcus’ and lana’s family. like, i think so much of it was just left as this big mystery to the readers up until this point, so i honestly liked that we did get the full story and we got to fully understand it all. but, with that being said, i honestly didn’t expect it to that dark. like, honestly that scene was just so disgusting and i honestly didn’t think it would have been that bad. so, if you do want to read this book, just know that these scenes were honestly brutal to get through. like, i heard that it wouldn’t be bad, and i thought that i would be able to deal with it, but it was still honestly really bad.

PAINT IT ALL RED- 5/5

honestly, romance wise, i this was by far the best book in the series. like, holy crap. like, i think in this you really see the limits that both lana and logan are willing to go for each other and how far they are willing to push for each other. so, i honestly thought it was just so amazing and i honestly really loved it so much. like, the growth and the development was just top notch and i honestly think it was just so amazing. and honestly, one thing i wish they did, was have it be death trope, since i feel like with this type of story, it would have completely worked so well.

and i think in this book, it was honestly so cool to see how lana’s character grew. like, i think very much in the series that her growth could’ve been really tricky to deal with and do. but, i feel like it was honestly just so cool to see and she was honestly the badass female lead that you want to read about, and that you are honestly rooting for throughout the whole series. and i think that she honestly killed it and i honestly wish we could read more books with her as the protagonist, or at least more characters like her main streamed.

than for jake and lana. i honestly think he became such a stable in the series after all. like, i think in the start of the series, it was kind of all over the place, and especially in the first book, he was just kind of the annoying best friend. but, i think in this book, he really proved himself and i honestly think he is such just a ride or die, and i know i’ve said it like ten times already, but i think with every book in this series with jake, he just proves himself more and more.

but, with the ending, i feel like it was just a bit rushed. like, i do think that the ending was good, and especially with the epilogue, it was honestly so good and i honestly really loved it. but, i think with how the rest of the book ended, i feel like it was just way to quick and that i think they should’ve dragged it out a bit more, especially seeing that this is the last book in the series. but, i still think that there was just so many cool moments that they could’ve completely expanded on, but just rushed it, when it would’ve been cool to see, especially all the deaths.

anyway, that is all for today! i honestly love this series so much and it was just such a great read, even if it did truly live up to the mindfuck name, i still love it so much and i highly recommend this series to everyone, but still be mindful of all the tw’s.

hello everyone! today i am going to be talking about the first three books in the mindf*ck series by st abby. so, in this review i am going to be talking about the risk, sidetracked, and scarlet angel. and for these books, i’m just going to list the ones from all the books at the start, since they pretty much all have the same tw’s.

trigger warnings- murder, rape, torture, violence, death, blood, sexual assault, sexual violence, gore, sexual content, homophobia, kidnapping, physical abuse, injury/ injury detail, sexual harassment, body horror, stalking, vomit, child abuse, death of a parent, car accident, hate crime, cursing, grief, misogyny, emotional abuse, gun violence, mental illness, bullying, child death, panic attacks / disorder, pedophilia, sexism, excrement, trafficking, gaslighting, body shaming, confinement, deadnaming, domestic abuse, drug use, infidelity, suicide, toxic relationships, religious bigotry, abandonment.

THE RISK

so, i gave this book 5/5 stars. honestly, this was just such a good book and such a great way to kick off this series and get us into this world with these characters and everything. and i honestly really liked this book so much and i think it was just such a great book.

one thing i really liked in this book was the characters. like, if i’m being completely honest, i was so scared that they weren’t going to be able to write this story with the characters being polar opposites from each other. but, when it came to them, i honestly loved them so much. like, with how they had different jobs, if you will call what lana does as a job, but it was honestly so cool to see how they both worked hand in hand and had this plot that worked so well with the plot and the characters and how they all worked together.

but, than for the writing of this book, i feel like it was just so amazing and i honestly loved the writing so much. like, i honestly feel like this book was just so gripping and i honestly loved the writing. like, i think that so much of this book brought the writing and packed the punch with it all. and like i really think they honestly did so well with it all and actually making you feel like lana would also feel at the same time. and i mean, it was just so good and i honestly loved it so much.

another thing i really liked in this book, especially since we saw it get fleshed out the most in here, is the relationship between jake and lana. like, i think so much of this book was just so cool and i honestly really liked to see how they knew each other and got to be friends that way, and how they help each other with it all. and their bond through it all was just so amazing and i honestly loved it so much. and i think how they had this relationship, were they went through everything together, was just so amazing and i honestly really loved it.

SIDETRACKED

again, i gave this book 5/5 stars. and i honestly really loved this book so much aswell. and i mean, i really liked everything that they went through, if you can say that you liked their journey cause it was messed up.

one thing that i liked in this book more than the other book, was the relationship between lana and logan. like, i think that their relationship in book one was top notch, but i think it was even better in here because we already had book one and that they got to work through all of their issues in that book. and i loved so much to see how they kind of made up for lost time, with how they had to work crazy ass hours. and i especially liked how they got right up the i love you plot line and that they were just such a good couple.

another thing i really liked in this book was the how they didn’t focus on logan’s past as much as they focused on lana’s. like, i think so much of this book did focus on lana and all the trauma that she went through, so i honestly liked that they focused so much on her. like, it honestly felt like they were giving more of the story to her and giving the voice to the victim, which i feel like they don’t do to much in victim stories, especially a love story. so, i honestly really liked how they gave her the voice, even if that meant they didn’t give us a lot of logan’s backstory.

but, even with giving lana the voice, i still liked how they still gave logan a plot, even if it focused more on his job and him trying to find the serial killer, not lana. and i mean, i honestly like that this book gave the plot to both of those characters, and than also gave them kind of a plot in the middle, even when it was more romance than anything else. and i honestly really liked seeing how all the plots in this book also kind of went back to the same romance plot and it was just so amazing.

SCARLET ANGEL

again, i gave this book 5/5 stars. honestly, i knew the other books in the series were like really gross and that they talked about some gross things, but i honestly didn’t expect it to go this bad as this book did, if it is a good or bad thing.

one of the things in this book that i liked so much was how action packed this book was. like, of course all the books had some sort of action, mainly with lana killing men. but, with this book i feel like you get a little more action when it comes to what the actual content was in this book. like, i feel like the whole serial killer vs serial killer was just such a cool premise and i honestly liked what it brought in the end and how everything kind of got messed up from there.

and in this book, i honestly really loved the side characters in here. like i really like hadley and to see how she connected with this all. and i mean, she was just such a good character to have around and i really liked her connect with lana at the same part. but, i also really liked to see her past, and see how it was similar, but different than lana, but i still think it was just so cool, even though i thought she was going to get with logan. than for jake, i feel like his character arc kept getting better as the story went on. and i think that so much of this book / book series he was just such a ride or die, and i honestly loved him so much.

and with hadley and lana had their own little thing. this was honestly something i really liked, to see how they both had this scene together that was like hella traumatic, so seeing how they both got together and like banned together through it all was so cool. and i think the whole female friendship really helped this book and this series overall, no offense to jake. but it was definitely kind of cool to see how this little event kind of messed up and set the tone for the rest of the series.

anyway, that is all for today! i honestly loved this book / series so much and i think that it was just so good. and i mean, i think that the cliffhangers in this book was just top notch and honestly this book was like being like a drug cause it was so addicting.